Monday, October 1, 2012

These things that I Fear

We all have things that we fear.
For some it is rational, like snakes, spiders, or other "harmful" creatures.
For others it can be quite silly, like balloons or, apparently, certain kinds of shapes. 
For me it is certain kinds of countries. 
More specifically, countries that are located either too high North, or too far South of the equator.
I fear countries where the seasons can change and nature can "die". 
No, seriously. They literally scare the crap out of me! 
I fear that mysterious time of the year, 
when it is said that Hades snatches Persephone from her Mother's arms. 
When greasy claws ply against delicate flesh, 
and all of Nature retaliates by turning away in painful sorrow. 
I grow anxious in the Autumn, when the leaves start to turn, 
when animals start to fly South to warmer parts. 
I grow positively frightened in the winter, when the trees have long died. 
When there are no more birds to sing with, 
or butterflies to chase down flower strewn paths. 
For some, snow is like a delicate veil. A beautiful thing of ice and lace. 
For me it is a shroud. A funeral shroud that masks a Mother's tears.
I fear the Winter. I'm not even joking.
Very early on I swore to myself,
that if i were to ever "move" somewhere that I would not go to such places.
At least here, in the tropics even when I'm "alone", I'm never alone.



NickMorgan said...

I know exactly what you mean. My problem is that I do live considerably nearer the equator than you and I am now cherishing the last few days of seeing butterflies and being able to drive my little sports car! Roll on April!!

Brittanie said...

This is coming late but I can sort of empathize.....minus the anxiety. There is a sadness that can come at this time of year. I've felt it quite a few times.

But there are things about this time that I just love and they take my breath away just like everything else that I love about nature does. I think freshly fallen/falling snow is breathtaking and angelic.

All the colors that can be found in Autumn with the leaves......hoards of Woolly bears =) The Monarchs and various Nyphalid butterflies flying around and find rare stragglers on unusual warm days.

There's most definitely a beautiful side to it. I tend to focus on that as I anxiously wait for our little friends to return. =)

I DO envy you though. You get to have all sorts show up at your door step and all the parks/woods all year. ^^